Though She Be But Little She Is Fierce

Though she be but little, she is fierce. ― William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream

. . .

"Mom, I'm going to pitch."
I replied, "You need to practice your catching before the coach will let you pitch a game."

I tell her this because she's one of the youngest and girls on her softball team.
I know the coach will let her practice, but will never put her on the mound during a game.

My daughter is not me. She is not the shy, self-conscious, scared little girl I was...
The first day of practice she saw the sixth graders fast pitching and her response was...

"I am going to do that."

During the games, I watch how stressful it is for the pitcher.
I watch their faces as they try and try again to keep control of their pitches.
I watch them grimace with every "ball" the ump calls.
I watch the shame when the other team scores a run off their pitch.

I secretly think, "I'm glad they won't put her in. She can't handle that."

My husband continues to practice pitching with both girls at home and on the field.

I look at the time on the clock as I finally get in the car after a day of work meetings.

Text 1: When will you be home from work?
Text 2: The game is at 7 if you can make it on your way home.
Text 3: The game hasn't started yet. (It's running late)

I'm only 2-hours into my 3-hour commute home. There's no way I can make it to the game in time. My phone continues to buzz on the passenger seat. I stop for gas.

I look down and only two words come into focus: She pitched.

I take a photo of my sadness to remind myself to be cautious of the repercussions of my work choices.

Action expresses priorities.
― Mahatma Gandhi

My heart is heavy the rest of the drive home.

I share my sadness with you and you respond with empathy and love. Thank you for the reminder...

I put on a smile, pretend I don't know she pitched for the first time, and go off the wall when she shares the big news.

P.S. We've got a second fast-pitch softball champ on our hands for next year.

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